Writing with a Sixgun

I write Westerns not because I’m a Westerner (well, I am) or live the cowboy life (I do know a real cowboy) or even like horses (the last I rode threw me down in the dirt and galloped away sneering). I write Westerns because the Wild West is another world, a stranger world than I ever knew, and a terrifically exciting place to live for the weeks-months-years of writing a Western novel.

Whoa! Let me correct one Wild West oddity here at the start so you get the feel for what comes next: The 19th century word was not “cowboy” but “cow-boy” (Billy the Kid can confirm, so can Ike Clanton). A name never meant to be flattering or heroic but to brand a delinquent or crook or cattle rustler. And may have started out racist – 20% of men working cattle drives and ranches after the Civil War were Black (plus many Native Americans and some Japanese and Chinese and a few Canadians who couldn’t read North on a compass to get out of the heat).

Although the word’s antique origin from the Mexican word vaquero (really the Spanish of Seville, where all things cowboy were invented in the 16th century and brought to the Wild West in the sprawl of the Spanish empire) does translate “cowboy.” But the Old West made “buckaroo” of that word.

So cow-boy is the word in all my books. Just as no sensible person in my books loads six rounds into a six-shooter or stands up in a dusty street at high noon to gun-duel with a villain.

True, the Old West was a time and place where folks were more direct and open than in our own. But that doesn’t mean they jumped into gunfights or “showdowns,” as Wild Bill Hickok called them. And Wild Bill was pretty much the first – in a duel over a pocket watch – and certainly the greatest of “shootists”. (Btw, Libbie Custer thought him the handsomest man she ever met, though she never told husband George, which likely spared them both a showdown.)

No, gunfights were shocking town spectacles that made the big newspapers back East because they were less common than TV and Hollywood teach. After all, what fool would facedown another man or woman heavily armed and with murderous intent? No, no, no. Best to shoot him/her in the back, which is how front page arguments more usually were resolved (Morgan Earp was backshot likely by Johnny Ringo and died on a pool table after the OK Corral gunfight and Wild Bill was backshot at cards in Deadwood Gulch).

Seems to me the last official gunfight on record in Sacramento, California, my hometown and last station on the Pony Express (Mark Twain wrote for the newspapers there), was in the mid-1960s. When city police interrupted two idiots chasing each other around a parked car firing off shots at each other as in a Yosemite Sam cartoon. (Wyatt Earp’s ashes and those of the woman sort of his wife who was part-cause of the Tombstone fiasco are buried near Sacto. Wyatt’s post-OK Corral advice: Never walk into a gunfight without a pistol in your hand.)

So if the Wild West wasn’t that wild, what makes it worth writing about? Well, it was filled up with the same immigrant trash that filled the American Colonies, the impoverished and desperate people who had no hope in their home countries but had the courage to cross the blustery Atlantic in hope – in hope, that’s the key – of a better life.

I.e., ordinary people who became cowhands, ranchers, farmers, shopkeepers, mothers, fathers, kids happy to live the Tom Sawyer life. Of all colors, creeds and backgrounds. Ex-slaves from the ruined South, wrecked veterans of the Civil War, escapees from big city ghettos and slums. Wanderers, adventurers. Some few who tried to do right by the Native American and Mexican (and Russian and French) populations settled there before the newcomers arrived.

All making a very human story of endurance, sacrifice, heroism and prejudice. But of people forced by brushing up against other people and by the sprawl of the West to become better than they were. Making a story worth telling beyond the gaudy tales of gunfights and gun-men.

So my books are not Hollywood or TV Westerns. No stereotypes or cliches allowed, no sir. If you spot one lurking on a page, expect it will suffer a sudden twist to become something else. Something more real to the Wild West in its true time and place.

Because the true story of the West, without all its mythic trappings, is the story of ordinary people jammed into a desperate corner who must become very near to heroes to survive. That is the story I write. Sixguns and all.

© 2023 Steven Hardesty

Veterans Day for Just One American Hero

I love marching bands and parades but I don’t go all soppy on Veterans Day remembering our fallen and wounded heroes in uniform. That is because November 11 is the day I reserve for a joyous thanksgiving for what those men and women gave us – our country, safe and whole. That makes it a second Fourth of July celebration for me. And the one day of the year I don’t think about one particular hero.

I can’t say why what happened to him affects me so much so many years after our war, but I think about him nearly every day. He has 364 Veterans Days with me. When a whiff of diesel from a passing truck gives me an unexpected flashback to the crank and roar of tanks. When the air on a hot, dusty day sets my teeth on edge like chewing tinfoil and I’m standing there again, beside the guns firing a mission, tasting cordite. Then I remember him. We were buddies in war. We went though officer candidate school together. Ended up artillerymen in the same piece of Vietnam. Faced the same hardships, the same risks, the same sniper fire, the same incoming rockets, the same humping the boonies with the grunts calling fire to keep us all alive and to try to win our war.

When I finished my year’s tour in the war zone, I went home, very happy to go home safe and whole. He stayed on. He had extended his tour of duty. But it wasn’t quite the same home I had left. There were no parades for me and no cheers. Girls wouldn’t go out with me – and that was very painful when I was young – because they believed me to be one of those doped-up, village-burning, orphan-making wild men they had heard about from some twisted characters on the grapevine. That was not a description of me or any other soldier I knew in the war. It was not a description of this one hero.

There was no good ending to that war. Too bad. I don’t care to argue politics here. I want to tell you about a letter. It was around Christmastime the year I got back Stateside. Here, the letter said, written by an adjutant in my old battalion, is some unhappy news. He was killed last week and we knew you would want to know.

He was killed on an artillery firebase. In the middle of a hot and dusty day. Mortar rounds were coming in and he was down deep behind sandbags, trying to stay alive. A mortar round struck a gun pit and guys were flung across the hardpan and were lying twisted and screaming for help. He was 23 and their captain and he ran out to help them.

I came home and he did not. I have a wife and child and made a satisfying career and he was denied all those things. Why did he do that, with the shells coming down and his chances very slim of getting across open ground to the wounded? You know the answer as well as I. He did it for his buddies. To save a life, if he could, by risking his own. Because there is something in the spirit of an American soldier, committed to the defense of his country and family, that he must protect his buddies who are his country and who are his family. What nobler thing can be said about anyone?

That is why on Veterans Day I cheer the parades and wave the flag and think not about the fallen and those war-wounded in body or mind but about what they did in 1776, and 1865, 1918, 1945 and 1969, to create this country and keep it safe. Veterans Day is my special day for cheering so many. Because on the other 364 days, I think about one special hero, and what he sacrificed for us.

(I repost this article every year for Veterans Day. Because I must.)

(c) 2011-23 Steven Hardesty

Image: “Tank from ‘Bravo’ Company, Tanks in support of Third Battalion Seventh Marines, 1st Marine Division, Vietnam 1968” U.S. Department of Defense photo.

The Mistake of Clearing Your Bookshelves

A book is a conversation, isn’t it? and yesterday I thought to clear off my bookshelves to restock them with fresher conversations. But a good book is one you want to read again, said Mark Twain, and I made the mistake of opening each book I pulled down to replace and now I have to read them all again and keep them. Except one.

After all, who can give up...

Self Portraits: Fictions by Frederic Tuten (with a cover by Roy Lichtenstein)

I had not opened this book in a long while and had forgotten how startling are Tuten’s stories. I like the physical structure of the narrative and their dreamy quality. The first story, “Voyagers,” opens the door to all the others because it tells of a writer's mind not always on the present planet. A story of those who dream and act on their dreams. I act on my own dream memory of the first time I read the story and sit down to re-read it in the bright sunlight streaming across bookshelf. I let Frederic Tuten tell me the story a second time and that hardly seems enough.

“Voyagers” is the price of admission to the book’s strange ordinary world. A story that makes Tuten’s story-telling career a triumph. A story that deserves vast prizes. I read it a third time, sitting in the brightest sunlight so I am sure to hear every word of its conversation.

Words that make me dream of an aboriginal priest on a stone pyramid staring at the Moon and wondering, wondering, wondering when the electric toaster will be invented and by whom and how a great empire of industry and invention must be raised up to do it. How can I find that tower to share a place on the pyramid’s peak beside the aboriginal man so we stare together at the Moon?

Grand as are all the other stories in Self Portraits, "Voyagers" is a perfection. Wish I could write like that.

I wonder, Where have I heard this voice before, or something similar? Brautigan! Yes, “Voyagers” shares Richard Brautigan’s dream:

Trout Fishing in America by Richard Brautigan

Like the Bible and the Declaration of Independence, Trout Fishing in America ought to be a seminal document of American culture. Especially the ejaculation scene. (Pardon the pun.)

I have read this book a hundred times (who hasn’t?) since I first heard Brautigan’s name in the 1960s. Heard that great story of his printing his home phone number on the album jacket of a reading of his poetry. Thinking people would see his number and phone him for a chat. But no one did. No one really believed he would publish his phone number that way.

I had never heard the album and lately I did. Brautigan recited in a whiny, sing-songy poetry voice that made it impossible for me to listen to the words I so much enjoy reading. I’ll keep Trout Fishing on my shelf because no library in America can be an American library without it.

But I will pull the thin tape out of the old cassette of his recital and toss it on the rubbish heap. Better that than remembering a voice so much poorer than his powerful words.

There, on the shelf too near Brautigan and Tuten, is a book I will not name because it was the first book I ever destroyed with malice:

A Book Unnamable by an author I won’t name

Looking back, I wonder that I was not shocked to destroy that book. It was, after all, the contents of a man’s synthesis and calculation, of his own strange ideas justifying Hitler, and he was free to speak his mind. But revulsion for his thinking was in me. Revulsion for his falsifications of history, his apology for a monster and his war. I was not much an historian when I bought the book and read it hoping for insight into the man who made a world war that murdered sixty million – probably 100 million – human beings, six million of them in the grinding horror of his concentration camps.

One true thing came from reading that book – a reminder that human beings can be savages. But “Voyagers” and Trout Fishing are antidote to savagery, horror and falsehood. Tuten and Brautigan are the bright, dreamy half of the human split personality. The half that will endure. Or so I hope. We on this pebble spinning through cosmic emptiness must live in hope and dream. What else can we do?

Night by Elie Wiesel

There, in a corner of my bookcase, is a book almost too white-hot to touch. The most terrible book I have ever read. The story of one of those concentration camps. After one reading, it will be years before I can take it down to read again, to hold it burning in my hands and read the fire once more. It is a story of such terrible power I feel compelled to ask, Can we human savages ever deserve the redemption we seek?

When I learned my daughter’s school would teach the book to her at age fourteen, I went in to protest. It takes a prepared spirit to read that book, I said, and no child can be ready for it. “But Anne Frank,” the headmistress said, “was just past fourteen when she was sent into the concentration camps.”

My daughter read the book. I could not talk to her about it. I could not say, even in a coward’s voice, that the price of knowing the truth about human selves can be too terrible to pay. That others have paid the price for us, and we must make our lives worth their sacrifice.

I keep that book shimmering in fire on my shelf and look for another conversation to relieve for a moment the unrelievable, and that’s...

Side Effects by Woody Allen

Here is another book that rebels against the encroachment of lies and terror. A lot of baggage to carry for a little paperback full of funny stories. I like best “The Kugelmass Episode” about a magic cabinet that sends Kugelmass off into the pages of a great novel to become Emma Bovary’s lover.

This is a story for voyagers and trout fishermen and far too good, even in my flaking paperback edition, not to keep. I’ll re-read it tonight in bed, beside my wife. Perhaps it will transport us into, oh, Pamplona for the running of the bulls with Jake and Brett and the wounded matador. Or to a steamboat on the Mississippi with the leadsman calling out “Mark twain!” Or maybe to meet a fellow named Rick and a woman named Ilsa in a town called Casablanca. Yes, maybe so…

Goodnight, sweet princes and princesses all. A good night and better reading.

(c) 2023 Steven Hardesty

Going to War, Maybe?

When I finish writing a novel I fall into a ghastly funk. Because all those wild characters I meet in my stories – so unlike the people I know IRL – have taken off for other mad adventures elsewhere and left me behind and alone.

Not this time, no, no, no. I’ve just finished indie-publishing on Amazon an anti-war war novel (see the image next door) that started out jolly good fun but ended surprisingly grim-grim-grim and war-horrible. What else can you expect from a war novel gone anti? And I don’t want to see those characters ever again. Here’s why:

Not many people are in favor of war, least of all the soldiers who fight wars. That’s my experience as I was a soldier in war once-upon-a-time. But a lot of those not-in-favor don’t much care if somebody else makes war on somebody even more else. This story focuses on the hapless adventuring through the Army and the Vietnam war of the nameless main character, a young, ambitious, befuddled, brand-new soldier. But the book really is aimed at Those Others.

Young people do the heavy lifting in war and most of the being torn up and made dead. So I thought I’d start the book with a young person’s excited ambition to go to war and build to the tell-it-like-it-is. All the way to the bitter end I saw.

Ah, well, better writers have told the war story better – James Jones (The Thin Red Line, The Pistol), Joseph Heller (Catch-22) and Erich Maria Remarque (All Quiet on the Western Front). And, of course, Kurt Vonnegut (Slaughterhouse-Five) and George MacDonald Fraser (Quartered Safe Out Here).

But those books did not focus on the young man or woman 18-25 years old – prime conscription/enlistment age – who most needs to think about war before s/he signs up to fight. Some wars need to be fought (December 7, 1941) and some don’t (my war). Took me years to figure out which is which and that is what I want to tell the 18-25 readers. So they don’t do what I did and go fight the wrong war.

Just added the paperback version on Amazon. Now you’ve two formats to use in telling me if the novel hits its target. Or that I must try again. As bitter experience makes me want to tell well a story worth its telling.

© 2023 text and image Steven Hardesty

Here’s some shouting

Every novel offers the same thing - the chance to jump into a fabulous new world and there discover a surprise dream and a fresh understanding of how human beings work. Am I right?

True, some novelists work it all backwards and that can read crazy. Some do it inside out and that’s just weird. But I discovered to my surprise that I am boldly different: No matter what genre I choose in which to tell a story - and I write Westerns, romcoms, space opera and anything else that promises fun - I always tell the same story. A story of war with life.

After all, how better to capture a dream and an understanding of human beings than in a war story that is not a war story but something very different?

I got to thinking about all this the other day when I hit the halfway mark in drafting a new novel. An historical Western called Cradle of the Wind about a buffalo hunter off the Great Plains tracking down the mystery of a woman’s lost head. Halfway through the manuscript was the point at which I realized I was writing two books on the same page.

After a good many years’ writing in whatever genre pleased me at the moment, and thinking what a clever fellow I am, I realized that I’ve been writing just one story all along. The story of my Vietnam war.

Yes, I’ve written four war novels. But that war crept into everything else I wrote - the romantic thriller Woman on Fire, the sci-fi/fantasy The Prince of Cowards, the horror In the Season of Poison, even comic capers like The Feathered Virgin. And now Cradle of the Wind.

In all those non-war stories, I tell just a bit of the everyday horrors and miseries of war. Only once did I try to tell the bigger, scarier truth of what happens to a soldier and his family when a war is done, and that was in a non-war war novel called Poisoned Hearts.

Now, half through the writing of Cradle of the Wind - set in the Old West in those hard, unsettled years after the U.S. Civil War and the collapse of Reconstruction - I discovered myself writing a post-war war novel with no chance of escape back to the Wild West romp I’d originally intended to write.

I refuse to take all the blame, though. Two books boosted me to understand any novel, including Cradle, can be and probably ought to be more than just a romp. First was the beautifully written West with the Night, Beryl Markham’s 1942 memoir of Africa and early aviation. There is war in it - the Great War - but not much. What struck me was its depth of understanding of narrative and swift characterization of complex characters. And, behind it all, something much more than one woman’s adventure - a casual courage and fixed determination.

At the same time, I read Ulrich Alexander Boschwitz’s novel The Passenger (1938) about a man trying to outrun the Holocaust but betrayed on all sides and by his own confusion and indecision. Boschwitz himself escaped Nazi Germany but died in a U-boat attack in the North Atlantic. His story of a man’s desperate inability to accept a bitter reality and his sinking into a kind of self-betrayal is stunning for the silent question it asks - “Me, too?”.

As relief from the bright and gloomy shocks of these two books, I took up Richard Brautigan’s The Hawkline Monster, a book I’ve never been able to read much past the first chapters although I’m a Brautigan fan. Big mistake. Here’s a classic lighthearted story that offers up the unhappy possibility that all life is a child’s prank. Brrr.

Markham and Boschwitz, and Brautigan, made me realize that when a thing needs to be said it must be shouted out or no one will bother to listen. So Cradle of the Wind is going to do some shouting. Or so I hope.

© 2023 Steven Hardesty

What Next?

Moping around the house today feeling bored and pointless, getting in my wife’s way at every turn in my wanderings up and down stairs. Yesterday I finished and published on Amazon a book I’d worked on for the last 7 years (The Glass Horseman) and now I don’t know what to do with myself. Too exhausted to start another manuscript.

Before all you young whippersnappers out there jeer for my writing so slooowly, I’ll say that during those 7 years I finished and published a dozen other books. Including a seven-book series (the Harry Seaburn crime capers) I wrote in a speedy 10 months. But other novels, well, the record-keeper took me 30 years to get just right (In the Season of Poison) before I dared put it between covers.

In progress, sort of…

Mark Twain needed 10 years to finish Huck Finn. By that standard, I’m both slower and faster than the greatest American writer. That’s something, isn’t it? Well, I think so.

It is not as though I’ve nothing else handy to work on. I often write two-three projects at a time, jumping from one to another as it pleases me and bringing to fruition whichever seems ready to take off on its own. The book just finished is my first stab at a weird Western (that’s The Glass Horseman). Lots of fun and lots of hard work. But I also had two other manuscripts in that horse race – a classic Western story and a Western comic mystery – and now I’ll see which of them seems likely to rocket away.

Or maybe I’ll go back to that bit of nonfiction that my writing group scorned last online meeting or revive the vampire romcom for which I’ve got a great cover or dredge up from the bottom of the drawer a sci-fi detective story or, oh well. Maybe I’ll just go paint a wall. I’m looking at a wall that needs it.

© 2023 Steven Hardesty

The Weirder Wild West

I never tried to be weird until just now.  Today I published my first weird Western – The Glass Horseman – at such a good price on Amazon that I’m sure you will want to buy dozens of copies to thrust on all your friends and acquaintances. 

It’s the story of a lone, lost cowboy dragged by an Ike Clanton very different to the character mere history and first-person accounts tell us he was into all the Gunfights with Wyatt Earp and Doc Holliday at the O.K. Corral.  (You knew there were more than one, didn’t you?)  And sort of what happens to him afterwards.  Sort of. 

Here’s the pretty cover made by James at GoOnWrite.com and if you tap on the cover the book’s Amazon buy page will pop up and you, too, can be a very happy weird Western reader.  Go ahead, tap tap tap!

(c) 2023 Steven Hardesty

The People Who Never Lived

I’ve got the greatest job in the world.  Not just because I’m a writer and can sit around the house all day eating bonbons and listening to counter-retro jazz fusion while everybody else is slaving away for cruel taskmasters.  No.  Because I spend all my working hours with the most fascinating people who never lived. 

The kind of people who populate my thrillers, Westerns and love stories and do fabulous and exciting things, often in exotic places or in an even more exotic past century.  The kind of people who make parties fun and brawls unspeakable.  The folks you’re happy to join for a beer but don’t want moving into the house next door.  Because some of the things they do – well, a lot of the things they do – are anti-social or howling nuts. 

Let me give a for-instance.  I just finished the first draft of my first weird Western – The Glass Horseman – and, as usual after a novel’s finish, I’m feeling blue.  I had such fun for so long with the people who live in the story – a young cowboy lost in the wrong world, charming outlaws and grumpy lawmen, a very strange lady coffin-maker and her stranger waterboy, all harried by targeted tornadoes, invisible walls and a gunfight at the O.K. Corral over and over again – that now, the draft finished and them gone away, I miss ‘em. 

Well, some I don’t miss – the villains.  They were especially villainous.  In fact, the main evildoer invaded The Glass Horseman from my historical Western novel The Gunfighter. And I wished he’d stayed there.  Ah, well, so did the hero, Leander Phipps, who is an even callower version of the hero in that series. 

All the villains – Ike Clanton, Wyatt Earp, Doc Holliday and the Gleason brothers gang – proved so aggressively awful and committed such savage crimes that I took a lot of pleasure in letting my young hero finally do unto them as they deserved to be done unto.  Or sort of. 

That’s another joy of the writing life – you can take revenge on every character who deserves it and get away with it.  Shoot this one with a six-gun, stab that one with a salad fork, shove another off the boat into the Arctic Ocean with the snapping polar bears.  No worries about cops knocking on your door.  Or friends of villains potshooting you in a parking lot. 

On the other hand, when you stumble across a hero or heroine, like Young Phipps, standing battered but determined in the face of misery and outrage, you can feel that you too are standing there alongside, ready to fight for the right and the decent.  Ready to help civilize the Wild West or bring down the mafia or comfort the lost and forlorn victims of war. 

It’s a great feeling when you see those things happening on the page you’re writing.  You forget you’re a bum sitting on your bum in front of a computer screen tossing back bonbons.  You remember the whole point of a writer’s life – to say as best you can what you have to say about being a decent human being in a world where decency too often is in short supply. 

We live in a real world of sprawling tyrants, sneering bullies and gutless liars no different than the villains in my fiction.  But ours also is a world of decent folk who deserve a break in life and sometimes, but only sometimes, get it. 

So it’s as much a surprise to me as I bet it is for my readers when the good guy wins in my novels.  Because I never know what’s going to happen in a story until I write it.  I don’t write to outline, you see, I write by the seat of my pants.  Flying blind through the story pretty much the way you read it, not knowing what’s going to turn up on the next page.  I do that because, if I plot a story in advance then I’ve told the story and it’s dead to me and I can’t write it. 

Usually, I get within 30 or 40 pages of “The End” before I can see where a novel is going and how the hero is going to squeeze out of his or her fix.  Sometimes I can’t see clearly how it will wrap up and I write many pages past The End and must go back and cut text to reach the true end point. 

With Glass Horseman, however, I had no idea how the novel would end until an hour or two before it happened.  Then – bingo! – those two magic words popped up.  Ending all my jittery worries that this story might go on forever and never find its End. 

But I was shocked to see how many engaging characters had to be sacrificed to the weirdness all around them, and to the villains, to reach a powerful endpoint.  I hated to see them go.  I’d hoped that one or two could become the hero/heroine of their own spin-off novels.  But that didn’t happen.  And all I could do was watch, stunned and wondering, as other things happened to all these people. 

I suppose it would be cliché to say that the process of writing, like the process of living, is a mystery too full of “Whys?” and too empty of Answers. 

So, too, writing, like life, is too full of villains and too short on heroes.  And it feels great when a story like Glass Horseman wraps itself up as it did, with a hero who has come to know himself.  (Sort of.) Making him a hero worth your knowing (I hope), not just to share a beer in the tavern down the road but to welcome into the neighborhood.  (Or maybe not.) 

That’s why, this weird manuscript done, I miss ‘em all. 

PS:  The Glass Horseman should be ready for publication and available on Amazon shortly. 

© 2023 Steven Hardesty  

Something Strange Happening Here

Yes, yes, I know you’ve heard me complain before when characters in my latest story take over and go their own ways. But this time I’m desperate and need your help!

I was staring into empty space and thinking, as one will, about George Pocock and his invention of the Charvolant – a four-wheeled, six-passenger buggy pulled by a kite that made 20mph and outran a fast mail coach in England in 1826 – and voila! there’s the nub of a story for a fab Wild West novel.

But who do I give it to? Which of the protagonists in my other Western novels can carry the weight of such a grand idea?

The unreformed gunfighter Spotted Billy Sumpter?* The boy Ronas, an accidental gunfighter?* Hamish Stark, evading a noose by hiding behind a stolen sheriff’s badge?* The amnesiac cashiered buffalo soldier Easy Holloway?* Even Leander Phipps, a cowboy lost in a very strange world?* Or someone completely new?

I inclined toward Hamish Stark because his perpetual confused desperation and bright hope to give up gunfighting to own a bi-cycle repair shop appeals to me. I began to scratch the first words.

Old Stink and Pike, one a mountainman and the other a plainsman, popped up on the page in those first words. Oh, well, thought I, they can introduce the story as they do the Ronas novels. Let Hamish Stark swoop in to take over at the right dramatic moment.

But Stark never rode over the horizon. Instead, it was Old Stink who stood up to the task, yearning to get out of the flatlands and back to his mountains where gravity is less a bother, and Pike with his opinionated mule. All three startled to see a huge box kite flying a woman across the prairie.

Hamish Stark let me down and Old Stink fled back to his mountains. Pike, only ever meant to be a minor character in other stories, was the last man standing in the scrubgrass plain and he took over. I didn’t plan that. Didn’t expect it. Surprised to find him there anxious to rough-ride across my and George Pocock’s beautiful ideas. I barely know Pike, don’t know what he’s going to do next or where he will take this story. But I’m stuck with him.

Hamish Stark, you hear me – I’ll get even with you for this. The price for treachery is the rope and I’ll see that those three posses coming after you get a lot closer a lot sooner in your next novel.

Meantime, I’ve got to deal with Pike who bizarrely considers all the Great Plains his personal property, who is haunted by what he had to do in “the late war,” and whose moral compass will not deviate from the true no matter if death jumps up before him. Yet he is not a good man.

What’s the help! I need from you? Tell me how to write a good bad man or a bad good man called Pike. Maybe then I can wrestle this story away from him and make it my own.

© 2022 Steven Hardesty

Writing Monsters

To write is to feel like a god. But sometimes even gods don’t get things right.

Tell me, what do you call that weird feeling you get when you’ve written something that runs completely out of your control – “Frankenstein’s Monster Syndrome?” Now tell me why that monster’s still chasing me years after leaping from my first Kindle novel.

I only realized the beast was loose when a reader asked me why my first two-fisted, globe-trotting thriller – Woman on Fire – has a female protagonist when I am, well, not female. (As Joe E. Brown said in the last scene of Some Like It Hot, “Nobody’s perfect!”) My novel started out with a male lead character and I still can’t figure how the heroine crept into the story and booted him out.

Yes, yes, I’ve tried to piece together the evidence from early drafts – not easy to do when dealing with speedy electrons – and I think this is how it happened:

I’m not the sort who can write a book in his/her head or even scribble a few plot notes, then key it into a neat manuscript and zip it off to fame and fortune. Because that’s telling the story. Once I’ve told the story to myself that way, it’s dead to me and I just can’t write it down. What I do instead is stumble across a good idea, a handful of outrageous characters and a rough direction for the story and just start hammering keys excited to see how it all turns out.

That didn’t quite happen with Woman on Fire. I had this fellow in my head – a wretched fellow lost in life, desperate to change everything, no idea how to do it. Suddenly, fortune followed by disaster! How does he handle all that? What changes does it make in him? Can he survive?

Hot with curiosity, I popped open my trusty clunky desktop PC and began keying the opening paragraph. But he wasn’t there in the first sentence. Or the second or third. She was there, this very strange woman. Staring at me out of the computer screen daring me to carry on the story without her. She took over the novel, lock, stock and down to the last exclamation mark, and believe me by then I was making a lot of exclamations.

Where she came from and how she did all that, I don’t know. And it worries me. Because I have to wonder, Will she come back and what story will she take over next?

I have no defenses against her because I don’t write stories, I listen to them and they are first of all for me. I write novels that I cannot find to read on a library shelf or a bookstore or even Amazon. The stories I like best are those of ordinary people who find themelves doing unexpectedly extraordinary things. People who, when their backs are against the wall, decide to be heroes, if for just this one moment.

In Woman on Fire, Kathryn Teal starts the story living the life of a coward but she ends a hero. I think she proves Buster Keaton wrong – every now and then some man or woman really does achieve a kind of perfection.

This post in a somewhat different form was part of an Indie Author Blog Tour hosted by Meghan Ciana Doidge’s MadebyMeghan blogsite at http://wp.me/pP9tA-aK.

The Vanishing Boomer

Proud to say I’m a Boomer because we changed the world and all of you out there who aren’t haven’t.  I mean all you sneering Millennials, Gen-Zers and other such with cute names.  What have you done and why aren’t you getting down to doing something? 

That’s the subject of my latest book-in-draft called Boomers End. 

When I say changed the world, just think (if you dare) what music was like before we Boomers took over.  I don’t mean Ellington jazz or Goodman swing.  That stuff’s grand and eternal.  But pop music from Doris Day and Perry Como, folk music (can you really listen to the lyrics of Dylan’s “Boots of Spanish Leather” without cringeing?) and whining hillbilly (“D-I-V-O-R-C-E”). 

We Boomers shoved aside all that nonsense for Elvis! Chuck Berry! Otis Redding! James Brown! Tina Turner! the Jefferson Airplane! and Janis Joplin!  When they died there was no more music, as I’m sure you know.  Well, except for the Rolling Stones who, as good Boomers, don’t seem willing to fade away. 

How about books – Holden Caulfield, that Gone With the Wind nonsense and Rod McKuen’s poetry?  Give me a break.  We stomped all that and took up Richard Brautigan’s Trout Fishing in America.  Alan Ginsberg.  Harper Lee.  A Confederacy of Dunes.  Ishmael Reed’s Mumbo Jumbo. 

Our changing music, books and movies (Go Tell the Spartans) pushed along changes in the way people thought in the Age of Boomers and that pushed for a war on race hate in this country.  An end to a useless war in Vietnam.  For full and fair treatment of all people.  And for something else: 

Does it ever occur to you why a Boomer will rinse the top of a tin can before opening it to fork out canned tuna or pour tomato soup?  No, it isn’t to rinse off the supermarket shelf dust.  But to rinse off (and sometimes scrub with soap) the nuclear fallout.  From atom bomb tests in Arizona and hydrogen bomb tests in Siberia and Bikini. 

Boomers are the last of the World War II generation and we fought in the coldest part of the Cold War.  Born in those years right after the WW2 ended.  Raised by parents who had suffered through the war against fascism and, before that, the Great Depression.  We’re the last who truly remember that war.  Too young to fight it, yes.  But not too young to be reminded of it each day of our youth in a dozen unconscious and sometimes very conscious ways by our parents and by post-war society. 

We’re the ones trained to outsmart Russian nuclear missiles by hiding under our school desks.  Prepared to crawl into holes dug deep in the backyard to wait out nuclear war and then to crawl out into a ruined world to try to re-start the planet.  Told life could be nasty, brutish and short and probably would be. For us.  Very short. 

When we grew old enough to shout against all that horror, we saw we also had to act against the race hate that murdered four schoolgirls in a Birmingham church.  Against abuse and belittlement of women and their hopes to fully join society in all its aspects.  Against denying fellow citizens all that any citizen (and taxpayer!) has a right to expect from this country.  Against a foreign war that was unfair, unjust and unnecessary.  Against a corrupt election system and a lazy government. 

Against all the evils that, despite the progress we thought we were making, did not change that much.  Because life changes by increments and only rarely by leaps.  Oh, you hope for a leap, prepare the groundwork for a leap, maybe even achieve a leap.  But if you don’t push the increment, you make no progress at all. 

That’s why a Boomer out of habit still rinses the lid of a tin can before s/he cranks the old-fashioned manual can opener around the lid to cut it open.  Because you’ve got to crank hard to make progress, and any progress at all is progress.

© 2022 Steven Hardesty

No End of Fried Chicken

Robert E. Lee was a traitor and a slaver but there’s one story about him I enjoy retelling because it’s any soldier’s story and I was a soldier once.

Lee, riding along the trenches to check the dispositions of his army during Grant’s siege of Richmond/Petersburg in 1864, met two ladies in a buggy out to sightsee his army.

“General,” they said to him, “what do you hope to do after we win the war?” Thinking, no doubt, that he would reply, Become president of the Confederacy.

But Lee got a dreamy look in his eyes and said, “I want to eat fried chicken. Not one fried chicken or two fried chickens. I want no end of fried chicken!”

No end of fried chicken.

That’s what every soldier wants. In Ukraine and in Russia. In my war in Vietnam. Standing against the enemy hordes at Chosin Reservoir. Grinding over the Nazis in Patton’s tanks.

Because a soldier doesn’t want war. Oh, sure, he or she trains for war all across a twenty or thirty year military career. But in all those years s/he is likely to go to just one war. And once s/he sees war, once is enough.

For more of war’s hard truth, read “The Heart Attack” from page 49.

The TV news that brings the Ukraine war into our homes every hour presents plenty of horror but it does not show the real war that a soldier must live. No, real war is what you read on the grim front pages of newspapers from places like Uvalde, Texas – parents stunned and weeping at the massacre of their children in their school classrooms. Little bodies torn to pieces by automatic rifle fire. Children dying in pain and surprise. Dying in fading hope of rescue. Stunned, puzzled, wretched.

Soldiers this hour standing on distant frontlines to protect this country must look back at Uvalde and wonder, What am I protecting if we massacre our own children?

A soldier may want no end of fried chicken. But today he or she craves something more – a country with the courage to stop making war on its own children. A country worth the soldier’s protection and risk. Worth the soldier’s staring into the awful face of war abroad.

We need to measure up, we need to stand up like soldiers. Admit that the frontline is here within ourselves. That we may be defenders of this nation but we are its besiegers, too. And then do what must be done to reshape ourselves and re-form this country and stop making war on our children.

© 2022 Steven Hardesty

The Wonder of War

I am not a Hollywood celebrity or social media influencer so my opinion on war means nothing. But I am a combat veteran and will speak out in my novels even though TikTok has no interest. And I say war is a wonderful thing.

In the antique meaning of the word – full of wonders horrific and a rare few that are grand.

There is an over-plenty of war right now and I hate all of it. I’ve stood there in the dragon’s hot breath and testify that it’s foul stuff. But it is what comes after the dragon has swept past that I want to talk about. Because that’s the hardest part of war.

I mean what happens to you and me after war.

Yes, some wars have to be fought – for Americans, that’s 1861 and 1941. The U.S. Civil War and World War II were medicine to purge evil. Those wars were worth fighting. Just too bad we did not apply better preventive medicine.

But even after a “good” war the misery remains – ruined lives, ruined hopes, ruined dreams, wrecked families, orphaned children, spoiled fields and factories, poisoned harvests and rivers. You and me struggling wretched through long nights wondering why we did what we did and why we were not clever enough or humane enough to trek a different trail.

That’s the story of Poisoned Hearts, a novel about the aftereffects of the wonderful Vietnam war. It’s where I get to say – even though I’m not a celebrity influencer – what too many combat veterans experience in the dread time after war and what their families experience with them.

There is a very big war going on now. It will not end when it ends. No war ever does. This war, no matter who wins, will ricochet through all the decades ahead. The twisting misery it inflicts today will not stop. War poisons hearts. We all are being poisoned now.

We have to stop this war and chain up the dragon to prevent another. Or we all become combat veterans unable to sleep in grim night.

© 2022 Steven Hardesty

Just One Good Book, Maybe

I never wanted to be a writer, I wanted to be a boutique chicken rancher.  But that’s a post for a different sort of blog.  My writing ambition is to write one good book.  I’ve tried 34 times so far.  Trying to come up to Mark Twain’s standard – “A good book,” he said, “is one you want to read again.”  So what makes a book re-readable? 

Good question.  What novels have I read that I read again every year, and so should you? 

A Confederacy of Dunces by John Kennedy Toole, for a start.  Why?  Well, it’s full of demented characters harrying you with pitchfork and rake through a wild tale of romantic gloom on a par with the greatest medieval epics.  I weep at reaching the ending.  Not because it’s so sad or so happy (it’s both) but because once again an American novelist fails to concoct a decent ending for his fabulous invention.  Every re-read I snap it shut before The End so that Ignatius J. Reilly can run on with his story, and on and on, in Toole’s wild New Orleans, with me happy to catch up with him next re-read. 

Richard Brautigan’s Troutfishing in America.  Yes!  This is the novel of American civics every voter should be required to read before any election day.  So rich in humanity, antique common sense and hippie craziness that any reader will devour it like a-cheeseburger-and-a-beer. 

How about Thomas Berger’s Neighbors?  Oh, yes, I reread Little Big Man now and then.  But Neighbors is True American Life.  A suburban survival guide.  As Berger says, a shotgun and a fist in the face makes for good neighbors. 

William Faulkner’s collected short stories, especially “Turnabout,” which I took as a model for my first published short story.  Every few years I attack The Sound and the Fury (best listened to than read to hear the rhythm of Faulkner’s language opening new avenues into the tale).  But Faulkner wrote short stories as poetry and I like them better. 

Now for Melville and his horrid whale.  Moby-Dick.  Yes, I re-read it every year and sometimes all the way through.  Sometimes its adventure and horror are too overwhelming to continue.  Sometimes I get bored with all that boiling down of blubber.  But Melville and Huckleberry Finn are the bedrocks of American literature and too grand not to read often.  Also Poe’s poetry, but poetry’s too scary to mention here, isn’t it? 

Of the great Brit comic writers (Brits are natural comedians but don’t seem to know it), I re-read every year Pride and Prejudice by Jane Whosit for obvious reasons (even if it weren’t so funny, the writing’s just too good not to re-read).  Pamela Hansford Johnson is as sardonically comic as only a post-Austen Brit can be, and I re-read her The Unspeakable Skipton or Night and Silence Who is Here? or Cork Street, Next to the Hatters in rotation every year or so.  Same-same for Tom Sharpe’s Wilt and Blott on the Landscape. 

Pardon if I mention Catch-22 (Heller), Slaughterhouse-Five (Vonnegut) and The Pistol (James Jones), but I was a soldier and these tell a soldier’s bitter story, which is why I read them bitterly. 

Every now and then I re-read Ishmael Reed, of course (who wouldn’t hunger for a re-read after a first read?), Richard Wright, Shalako (where I learned the importance to a story of the feeling of grit in desert sand), Fitzgerald who wrote the most beautiful American English or Hemingway who only wrote about the Hemingway he wanted to be.  Also the original Hornblower trilogy I first read as a boy, A Canticle for Leibowitz, Keith Laumer (I sort of knew him), The Big Sleep which I  can never figure out, Don Segundo Sombra by Ricardo Güiraldes, and Out of the Silent Planet (C. S. Lewis), the first sci-fi novel I ever read and still think best of breed. 

Tonight I’m going to add to my re-reading list The Conversion of Chaplain Cohen (Herbert Tarr).  Been on my shelf or in my soldier’s rucksack for these many decades, still un-re-read, but I keep hold of it because I know its worth.  Just seeing it on my bookshelf reminds me how I discovered it, where and when, and that’s important because Chaplain Cohen helped me through my war. 

So what are you re-reading tonight or are you wasting your brains on booze, wild sex and bingeing Scandinoir?

© 2021 Steven Hardesty

The Reader Is Not the First Victim

Every book is an hallucinatory experience for a reader, isn’t it? as all its grand and awful characters rise up from the page.  You meet someone you’re delighted to know or wish to God you had never met and then snap! that vision is gone at the last page.  You have to read the next book in the series to grab that wonderful hallucination again.

It’s all a writer’s trick to keep you stuck on buying his books, you say?  Noooo.  The truth is far more terrible.  Because the trick isn’t a trick.  And the writer is its first victim.

Just for you and just for now, I’m going to break my oath of eternal silence to the Secret Society of Writers and reveal the unbelievable truth:  No writer has any idea what’s going to pop off a page until he or she writes it there.

Not those who meticulously plan a novel.  Not those who merely bang away from page one with no idea what comes next.  Not the guy who wrote Beowulf, or Agatha Christie or Gabriel García Márquez.

Here is what really happens, and it’s so unbelievable to experience I will have to give you an example or you will never grasp the metaphysical mechanics of the marvel:

The book is called Dead Hand, a Western in the classic style and true to its historical context.  I wanted it to say something special about the Old West and the hard men and harder women who lived there.

So this gunfighter is my carefully chosen protagonist.  He rides out of a bitter cold Arizona winter into a village of Exodusters, his trail-weary horse scattering children at their play, and into the warm, straw-smelling comfort of a stable.  Where he has an argument with a boy in tattered jacket and broken shoes about the cost of caring for his horse.

Up to this moment, the gunfighter is my chosen protagonist.  He’s going to carry the story along and embody what I want to say about those people in those times.  But a man in a flat-brimmed Stetson comes out of stable shadow raising a Buffalo Soldier’s old rifle to end the argument between gunfighter and stableboy.  And bingo! he’s my protagonist now.

How the dickens did that happen?

I don’t mean the man in the hat blazes away with his rifle to grab the novel’s lead role.  No, far worse.  He and the gunfighter and the stableboy share a bit of limburger cheese while ghastly shadows creep into their conversation.  And suddenly my chosen hero is unemployed!

This other guy is just too interesting, too dynamic, too much more the Western man.  He grabs the protag’s job.  He takes over the story.  And he drives everything to a boil until it all ends where I never expected the story to end.

Now that’s some weird and freaky magic.  But it happens all the time to a writer.  You’re popping along with a scene and suddenly Annie Oakley walks into it and where did she come from?  Or you finish an especially good line of dialog and wonder, What would happen next out of all this? and the “next” pops up on the page and you wonder how those sentences got there.

Or you’re coming to the end of the story and you’ve no idea how to get to The End (as with my first draft of Prince of Cowards just finished) when suddenly your hero runs off thataway and slaps The End at the bottom of the page for you and it’s all done.

There’s the writer’s most secret secret, ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls - no writer knows what he or she is doing.  It all just happens.  Scary, yes, but wonderful.  And it’s best when the reader finds it scary and wonderful, too.

© 2021 Steven Hardesty

Counting the War Dead from High School

Just discovered that a classmate died 52 years ago.  I was counting the Vietnam war dead from my high school and found him on the list.  We shared a couple of classes one year.  The war came.  That’s the whole story of our brief friendship.  I think about that war every day.  I don’t want to think about it.  Except.

He was a Marine and he was killed by another Marine.  Two nervous high school boys new to war standing guard on a bridge in a deep and worrisome night.  Strange noises.  Enemy?  One boy mistakes the other and shoots him.  Then, weeping, his dying buddy in his arms, he runs miles for help.  Except.

There was no help.  Not soon enough.  Not in the confusion and fright of a night of war.  Not for my schoolmate.  Not for the boy who shot him and who had a breakdown and was discharged from the Marines and died young.

Fifty-two years later I hear the story.  See the face in a grimy black-and-white photo.  Remember him.  Wonder what he might have made of his life but for that one terrible moment.  Except.

We of that generation have to wonder what we may have made of our lives but for the too many terrible moments that put us in Vietnam - each time we too willingly believed a lie told us by our politicians and generals, every time we cheered ourselves as the greatest among the nations, each time we taught children that war is Hollywood, and that victory always goes to the most powerful, the richest, the most glorious, the most arrogant, the most willfully ignorant, the most short-sighted, the most like us.

Pardon, I didn’t mean to dump all this on you.  Except.

© 2021 Steven Hardesty

I Make Some Gods, Sort of

Don’t know how I did it but yesterday I created two new gods. Bingo! Just like that. Now I don’t know what to do with them.

I made them out of a couple of scumbag ruffians masquerading as proper princes in a manic parody sword-&-sorcery tale featuring the greatest of all medieval heroes and titled (both my hero and the novel) The Prince of Cowards. (Set in the ghastly world of An Earthman Born, if you want to know.)

It is one shocking surprise to be keying along at ultra-lightspeed - making my hero and his warrior band jump this way and that as various misadventures strike them - when I suddenly see pop up on my laptop screen the staggering news that two very secondary characters only meant for a quick mention have become gods.

What do I do with fresh-made gods in this story, and not very effectual gods, at that? Shove them howling and protesting between my hero, his trollish sidekick and the hordes of half-human fiends howling down on them? Make them rebuild the illusion of a city’s walls and battlements to give my hero a place to cower with his famous double-headed battleaxe? Tell me, please.

This is what happens when you write as I do - by the seat of the pants. Meaning no plotting out the whole thing in advance. No elaborate character sketches on which to draw. Not even a scribbled map taking the hero from here to over there. Pantsing means you stumble across a great character or a sleek opening line or a curious predicament and start hammering the keys so you the writer can find out where it all leads.

Writing is an adventure for a pantser. The story could go this way or that and often does. Gods appear and disappear. Tree lobsters fall on the hero’s helmeted head or his troll runs out of the gamot oil that keeps all his/her/its internal plastic parts clicking over. Those damn warfrogs get bigger and bigger and hungrier for human flesh. (Well, everyone on this planet has an exquisite taste for exquisite humans.) Castles rear up stone-solid to melt away into delusion, and what’s my hero to do about it all?

I don’t know and I won’t find out until The End.

Meantime, I have to work with a hero who’s got a problem - he’s a coward hungry to become a hero to himself. His troll’s got a different problem - after 1,000 years of living and bored, he/she/it wants to try death but getting dead for a troll requires meeting a jillion bureaucratic rules. The one-eyed, three-handed lady archer who can’t decide over which eye to slide her furry eyepatch. And the boy Bob, the greatgreatgreatgrandson of the famous warrior-king a’Qonan, who merely wants to go home, thank you, and forget all this adventuring because it’s so hard on his feet which keep getting chopped off faster than they grow back.

And now I’ve got these new gods in the swirling mix. Maybe it’s time for a new pair of pants.

Cheers & keep safe out there!

© 2020 Steven Hardesty

The Writer in Quarantine

What is a writer to do in this dreary plague year when he’s infected with PIM (Pandemic-Induced Malaise) and feeling too sluggish to write a single word?  Why, he digs through scraps of old, half-done manuscripts for inspiration, right?  Or maybe he shouldn’t.

Few weeks back, I burrowed into my own scrapheap of yellowing pages from the days when I actually wrote pen-on-paper and, later, on a thing called a “typewriter” and discovered some weird fantasy short stories I’d written in high school to charm pretty girls into going out with me.

That plan really didn’t work out, to my teenage wonderment.  But my buddies carried the stories up and down the state on their surfing expeditions - in a kind of samizdat edition - and showed them around and made the stories famous in a smallish underground sort of way.

Those were the days, you see, when poets hawked their home-made chapbooks on street corners and hippies blocked traffic to recite their novels.  My stories slid into that milieu.

Now, looking over these old stories with my PIM-infected eyes, I see how high-school awful they were.  No wonder they didn’t win me any dates.  But the stories and characters have a brash energy about them, and that special what-me-worry? teenage attitude toward life that I, riddled with PIM, suddenly found infectious.

So I flipped open the laptop and began hammering the keys to try to recapture some of that old feeling of youth, energy and mindless adventuring.  Yep, I took a story idea or two from those old yellowed pages (the brawling warfrogs, for instance) and reincarnated some characters.  But the new story needed a fresh character for balance, say, a blue-fanged troll watching and worrying for the youngsters running wild but joining in their howling adventures.

That’s why my new novel-in-progress - The Prince of Cowards - features a troll named Troll who lives forever, as trolls do, and has a forever perspective on life as he/she/other sidekicks for a grand but thoughtless sword-and-sorcery hero merrily squeezing himself into every freakish fix he can find on a planet filled with too many sentient creatures with a gourmet taste for human flesh.

And that, dear reader, is how one writer manages to drive away his PIM.

I should have the novel ready for publication early in 2021.  Meantime, here’s the cover - and a cheer for beyondbookcovers.com - to ease your frenzied wait.

Stay masked and safe!

© 2020 Steven Hardesty

The Rules of War (Noveling)

Because I write war novels, I like to give advice on how to conduct wars. Novel-writing isn’t sufficient cred for that job, you say?

Well, I also was a soldier in a losing war and spent a lot of time analyzing Confederate military strategy to write a book about it. Thinking about those things makes me worried we are not prepared for our next war.

So here are my seven rules on how to get ready for war:

One – Know yourself. I’ll talk about you later.

Two – Know your enemy. More importantly, give him credit for being as smart as or smarter than you are. Once you know him, do not assume you know him. Keep learning about him. Learn from him. Ask yourself, Why does he refuse to change his ways in response to all the misery I am dumping on him?

Three – Count the cost of war before you make war. Can you pay the tariff without reliance on some mystical “will” or “spirit” to make up for lack of trained manpower and material resources? Do you really believe enthusiasm alone will allow one of you to whip five of them?

Four – Never assume you are the meanest, toughest son-of-a-bitch on the battlefield. Or the smartest or best armed. Or possessor of the best strategy and best military leaders. If you believe you are all of those wonderful things, then ask yourself, Why would a cowardly, inferior, ill-equipped, poorly generaled rabble want you for an enemy?

Five – Never offer to fight except in a just and honest cause and out of desperate necessity. 1776. 1861. 1941.

Six – There is no such thing as a limited war. Go at every war hammer and tongs. Use all of your resources from the beginning. That way you will get it over quickly and inflict the least misery on the fewest human beings and have the least mess to clean up. Applying this rule also may persuade your citizenry that this war is not worth the risk in death and dishonor.

Seven – Know yourself. Know your arrogance, your prejudices, your stupidities, your blindnesses as well as – no, better than – you know those of your enemy. Are you a proud representative of the greatest country in the world, the most powerful military, the finest civilization? What do you think your enemy thinks of his country, his military and his civilization and why would he fight for something so inferior to yours?

Last, and this is hardly a rule, just commonsense – Remember that this war is not yours, it does not belong to you. It belongs to the whole people of the country who sent you to war.

Will they share with you the moral opprobrium of a bad war badly made? Oh, yes. Will they forgive you for dragging them into that kind of war? Oh, no. Nor should they.

Keep foremost in your war-thinking that you have been given on loan all the material and spiritual resources of your people. If you use those resources wisely, if you use them decently, when the war is done – won or lost – you and they together need not be ashamed of what you have done.

I suppose that is why I write war novels. To tell readers what I learned from my own time in war. To tell them that the country and people who sent me to a pointless war that killed too many of my friends did not demand that their military and political leaders follow these seven rules. Or any rules.

To say that the misery I still feel a half century after my war I don’t want you to feel except in the pages of a war novel. Where you can learn the rules we all must demand of our military and political leadership when we contemplate making another war.

And there always is another war waiting just around the corner.

© 2020 Steven Hardesty

Innocent in the Pandemic

When the coronavirus panic hits you unexpectedly in the middle of keying a sentence in your latest manuscript and you feel your breathing stop and you think maybe this is The End, you only need remember the words of our wise ruler to cure yourself:

“We have it under control.  It’s going to be just fine.”

“It’s a little like the regular flu that we have flu shots for.  And we’ll essentially have a flu shot for this in a fairly quick manner.”

“We’re doing a great job with it.  And it will go away.  Just stay calm.  It will go away.”

“We’re starting to see light at the end of the tunnel.  And hopefully, in the not-too-distant future, we’ll be very proud of the job we all did.”

“We’ve done a fantastic job on this China virus, the invisible enemy.  I get no credit for it.”

“The virus has nothing to do with me.  It’s not my fault.”

“The end of the pandemic is in sight.”

“I don’t take responsibility at all.”

And then there was that downbeat Lincoln fellow who said, “You may fool people for a time; you can fool a part of the people all the time; but you can’t fool all the people all the time.”

Have to wonder what Honest Abe meant, honestly.